Monday, April 20, 2009

re: cancers and capricorns or a letter to Henry Miller

Dear Henry,

I made a list of things you like

cunt
ennui
being racist (Tropic of Cancer)
individualism
cunt
collar buttons
being very racist (Tropic of Capricorn)
drinking
cunt
comparing oneself to Jesus
inanimate objects
olfactory descriptions
rye bread (sour)
cunt

and a list of things you are mesmerized by

all of the above and
money.

Henry, are you a megalomaniac or have you made yourself a totem?

xoxoxox
Maegan

Thursday, April 9, 2009

re: commenting and following

There are at least 3 of you who follow me.

Not counting my grandparents (who I pretend don't read it or would not be able to talk to them without blushing).

So leave a comment or follow me so when I send potential employers to this site they see that this isn't just masturbation. Well, you know, or that people are watching it - which makes it porn, but people get famous from that who are way less talented than me so whatever.

(Hi Nana).

Piece.
Maegan.

PS. You're right. My grandparents are totally counted in that three. As two separate people.

re: no one should watch the Watchmen

I finally saw Watchmen. So yes this is outdated and irrelevant.

But I was told to share this.
Here is an actual (approx) phone conversation I just had with Ms.Z

Me: So we saw Watchmen instead. It was awful. Just terrible.

Z: I liked it.

Me: No. No, you didn't.

Z: I mean I liked see the graphic novel come to life, the special effects, I liked that part of it.

Me: Well that's not liking it, that's liking the effects. I mean, I liked that too. But that doesn't make it a good movie. Like, as a whole object.

[Sputtering]The soundtrack alone was the most hamfisted, poorly conceived thing I've ever experienced. If the movie was good, I mean, it wasn't but even if it was, the soundtrack alone would have ruined it. Zack Snyder needs to do more than suck the creativity out of middling pieces of art and vomit it onto the screen. That would be good for him to stop.

Z: You should be paid to rant.

[Zofia's actual thought: You should be paid to rant about things that are completely irrelevant and help nobody by existing or being ranted about. which I would do. gladly. call me.]

Scene.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

re: Coincidence?

A new thing I'm trying - Coincidence?

I don't promise inspiration but I do promise coincidence presented without comment. It may be interesting, useful, fated or perhaps just a, well, you know.
Today I present:

The movie The Warriors.

Duddy Kravitz of The Apprenticeship of Duddy Kravitz by Mordecai Richler runs a "gang" called The Warriors.

Coincidence?

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

re: mulitiply sarcasmic or today's angst brought to you by the letter S

Sarcasm is the refuge of small minds or so they say. There are so many quotes and quips denouncing sarcasm that to list them would take two internets.

But it gets damned more than it deserves. I'm not completely endorsing it - rather I'm defending the necessity of unpleasant things. Some people are sarcastic because they are terrible, others because they feel terrible, and sometimes it's the habit of terrible feelings past.

To wit: "Sarcasm: the last refuge of modest and chaste souled people when the privacy of their soul is coarsly and intrusivley invaded." Dostoevsky

Perhaps that feeling of invasion - or fear thereof - lasts longer than the invasion itself and so that sarcasm you developed carries over as your go-to defense mechanism. The sarcastic are, or were once, insecure people. But so is everyone really, at least a little.

Let's not get too melodramatic - the sarcastic are not all broken or fragile or pathetic. But they were, once, and the sarcasm is the scar of where they broke once or were afraid of breaking. But scar tissue is not inherently unhealthy - it can cause problems, even prevent growth, but it's also a sign of healing and re-growth.

And it has to be because I am at my least sarcastic when I feel most comfortable - except when I'm my most sarcastic when I feel most comfortable. So embrace the 'casm where it is the space allowing two objects to exist.

To wit: "Sarcasm and compassion are two of the qualities that make life on earth tolerable." Nick Hornby.